He got up and sat on the edge of the bedstead with his back to the window. “It’s better not to sleep at all,” he decided. There was a cold damp draught from the window, however; without getting up he drew the blanket over him and wrapped himself in it. He was not thinking of anything and did not want to think. But one image rose after another, incoherent scraps of thought without beginning or end passed through his mind. He sank into drowsiness. Perhaps the cold, or the dampness, or the dark, or the wind that howled under the window and tossed the trees roused a sort of persistent craving for the fantastic. He kept dwelling on images of flowers, he fancied a charming flower garden, a bright, warm, almost hot day, a holiday—Trinity day. A fine, sumptuous country cottage in the English taste overgrown with fragrant flowers, with flower beds going round the house; the porch, wreathed in climbers, was surrounded with beds of roses. A light, cool staircase, carpeted with rich rugs, was decorated with rare plants in china pots. He noticed particularly in the windows nosegays of tender, white, heavily fragrant narcissus bending over their bright, green, thick long stalks. He was reluctant to move away from them, but he went up the stairs and came into a large, high drawing-room and again everywhere—at the windows, the doors on to the balcony, and on the balcony itself—were flowers. The floors were strewn with freshly-cut fragrant hay, the windows were open, a fresh, cool, light air came into the room. The birds were chirruping under the window, and in the middle of the room, on a table covered with a white satin shroud, stood a coffin. The coffin was covered with white silk and edged with a thick white frill; wreaths of flowers surrounded it on all sides. Among the flowers lay a girl in a white muslin dress, with her arms crossed and pressed on her bosom, as though carved out of marble. But her loose fair hair was wet; there was a wreath of roses on her head. The stern and already rigid profile of her face looked as though chiselled of marble too, and the smile on her pale lips was full of an immense unchildish misery and sorrowful appeal. Svidrigaïlov knew that girl; there was no holy image, no burning candle beside the coffin; no sound of prayers: the girl had drowned herself. She was only fourteen, but her heart was broken. And she had destroyed herself, crushed by an insult that had appalled and amazed that childish soul, had smirched that angel purity with unmerited disgrace and torn from her a last scream of despair, unheeded and brutally disregarded, on a dark night in the cold and wet while the wind howled

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    There’s been such an onslaught of opinions and articles about reading online that I’m almost hesitant to comment further on the subject, but after reading the latest NY Times article I have to make two points. First, the difference between online reading and print reading has been described in many ways, but at least one […]

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    The poetic sensibilities of Jim Crace’s fiction. (And yes, my advice is to get over the anti-Jesus bit and read Quarantine). If you haven’t yet gone to Time to ask Haruki Murakami a question, then do so before time runs out, because given the frequency of his interview-giving, you won’t get a second chance. Also, […]

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    Afraid I’m down with a bit of carpal tunnel syndrome, probably from the blogging combined with all my fiction writing, plus some unergonomic chairs/desks/keyboards. When your wrists hurt so badly that you have to take Advil, you know it’s time to do something about it. But I’ve made an IKEA run, set myself up with […]

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  • Requiem for a Book Review image of tag icon

    The title of this post might be overstated. The Los Angeles Times book review isn’t deep sixed, it’s just shrinking by a huge margin. But in three days, on July 27, the LA Times will issue its final standalone book review section. The loss of a standalone section is a huge blow to Los Angeles’ […]

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  • The Wonders of Small Beer Press image of tag icon

    Small Beer Press has been earning my respect. After reading a couple of their short story collections, including, recently, “The Ant King,” it seems they’ve latched onto a very particular aesthetic. It’s a flavor that no one else seems to be publishing, so they’ve established a niche. The mission statement on their website claims, “We […]

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    The Triumphant Return of Choose Your Own Adventure Stories. Ah, doesn’t it bring back the sweet smell of childhood and terrible books that were oh so much fun? Callie interviews Nam Le and asks all the questions that you’re not supposed to ask, but all the questions that those interested in short stories really want […]

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    Since John Fox asked me to write a guest entry on his blog, the thing that came to mind, was an argument we had the last time I saw him. Maybe it wasn’t so much an argument as me talking out of my ass about what I perceive to be the hallmark of most great […]

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    Gimme an B! Gimme an O! Gimme another O! Gimme a K! Gimme an F! Gimme yet another O! Gimme an X! What’s that spell? That’s right, the name of the guy who’s on vacation while I’m stuck here in sunny Southern California. Hmm, maybe that’s not so bad, after all … And, really, I […]

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    Experiencing a bit of technical difficulty with things on this side of the world. Please stand by.

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